Broken...but not destroyed.
I learned a lot the other night,
i learned one of your best friends can actually be embarrassed of you...i learned that first impressions are not always the truth...friends aren't really what they seem...i need to learn how to dance...i need to be confident...i don't feel pretty enough...i don't feel fun enough...i don't feel good enough...
all i wanted was to feel like a friend
you know...you kinda feel like dirt when your friend runs out of girls to dance with and everyone is starting to leave and thats when he asks you to dance...yup im last on his list....apparently the talks we had and everything, aparently we aren't really that good of friends
i realized what a jerk some people can be...who dances with a friend's crush like 5 times without even talking to them about it? "im gonna steal her away from you" yep you certainly tried to do that didnt you...what a friend...maybe you're just jealous because he actually was getting somewhere with this girl...how low can you be...friends dont do that to their friends...
*sigh*
yeah...im not really a nice person...
i leave my friends out...i feel so bad about it...i just dont like the feeling of being drug down by her...but that doesnt give me the right to leave her out...
i havent talked to one of my friends since like december...i really enjoyed talking to him...a lot...now despite how much i want to email him..im afraid to...afraid of what he might think of me...
yeah...so..ive had this feeling inside of me...i dont really know exactly what it is...but it hurts...
truth from the heat...
broken but not destoyed... | 
